This is SO hard

I want to lose weight this summer. I weigh 170-175 pounds and I want to get down to 150 by the end of summer, but this is so freaking hard. I have absolutely no motivation to work out. EVER. Even if motivation weren’t an issue, I rarely have the time to exercise. Between work and preparing for school and always being sick and trying to have a social life I don’t see anytime in my day to workout. Not to mention the fact that I can’t afford a gym membership. I work at a fast food joint so usually when I eat dinner it’s burgers and fries and soda late at night. And on top of that, my mom hasn’t gone grocery shopping in weeks and all that’s in our pantry is crap food. Stale chips and cookies, canned soups and refried beans, frozen tv dinners, freezer burnt vegetables, the list goes on. So when I am at home and want something to eat, what am I supposed to do? We never have any fresh food in the house that I can cook soooo I end up going down the street to McDonald’s or Starbucks or Panera Bread to get breakfast or lunch. I hate the way my body is changing. I hate that I can’t wear the clothes that I used to and I hate that I hate the way I look. I wish I had never let my body get this way.